Life is indeed a party

Life is indeed a party
Sometimes u enjoy sometimes u don't
Either u are with the crowd or left on your own
U meet new people and u laugh with the old ones
At times the food is great and at others u wish u had to swallow none
There are moments of doubts when u wonder why at all u came and then there are those when u are just glad u got to attend
U dress up u dress down...'coz sometimes it's cocktail n sometimes pyjama
It is smooth-sailing every now and then but you can't avoid oodles of drama
So party as long as the music is on
'Coz u never know when the DJ says it's over human....be gone!!

Spiraling Down A Bottomless Pit...Oh What a Life i Lead!

oh what a life i lead!
where are they whom i need?
is it wrong to expect a little?
why do i day by day turn so brittle?
i can't distinguish one day from another
yet come to think of it..before my very eyes things have withered
i am drifting at times...and at others rooted to a spot
wonder if all good things come to those who demand a lot
i demand none and desire few
and perhaps that's my sin...setting all askew
it is a tired existence littered with laughter in traces
transitory sunshine with a whole lot of empty spaces
i do not know if it is worth what i seek
and if what i seek will brighten all that is bleak
my way is lost taking me along with it
i only wander down an unlit path thinking about a bottomless pit
the pit reflects moments bygone but with a lure so strong!
I cannot help but wish to relive them...knowing it is so wrong
desolation harps at me...my constant companion
and i fear one day i will lose myself into unknown oblivion
if only there were something warm to live by
a hint of sunrise across my dull skies
then again i know not what i am asking for
it might be the sun-kissed sea about to drown me...in the guise of a golden shore...

I gave u roses and u left them to die
I wonder why..
On offering a beautiful sunrise u gifted me an endless night
U disappeared just when u and u alone filled my sight
Maybe i was right for u but u were all wrong
U were in my every waking thought like a favourite song
I never knew how to let u go still i did
Even today my nightmares...your essence they bleed
At times i wonder why is it that i wanted to be the sole star in your dark skies
Was i bright enough or were u just a black hole in disguise?
I do miss the warmth i had once felt
But not the cruelty which in the end u had dealt
For i was in it for life and then some more
Now i avoid all paths that lead me to that door
I wanted my why answered but that is never to be
I know my freedom comes at a price of never ever coveting thee..

if you treat me like you don't care
i for you alone would turn into stone
i would give you up to the four winds
knowing i can't claim you as my own
you can start starfires with what's inside of me
you need only open your eyes and see
but you are too distracted with life
darling won't you agree?
but in a different lifetime maybe i would care less
and you would share you more
and i would not have to be so frigid and unwillingly seal the door
for something doomed from the start i erringly wished upon a shooting star
knowing that the brilliance is short-lived now i watch dark skies standing afar
you are you and i am me and i get that there is no we
so what if a few hopes and dreams were spent and some sleep lost in misery
let's not take that bend in the road...let's just leave it be...

If...

I can walk a thousand miles for u
But would u take that one single step?
I can make u smile everyday
Never let ur joy ebb

I will capture stars for u
But u have to be my galaxy
U can be my sandy beach while i'll be your serene sea

I will weave my way into your heart
Like someone inspired by a work of art
U would have to gift me all of u
For I would want you whole and not by part

U have to promise me wings
And i would keep u safe and warm
U need to woo me with tales
On rainy days and nights filled with storms

If u be my sunny spring
I would be your sweet breeze
If u promise to annoy me forever
It is you I would always delightfully tease

I would always be there to dance with u whenever u feel low
But u have to drive away my frown even before i feel it on my brow
U should make me laugh and i will tickle u alike
Every time i see you my heart rate should spike

If u be my sunshine i'll be your never-fading rainbow
I'll be there for u till the very end if you never ever let me go...

U are not what i need
But u are something I desire
For fleeting moments maybe
U stir up certain emotions and ire
U are not meant for me
'Coz u cannot be just mine
I know for me alone
You would never walk the line
Maybe i make u a tad happy
Maybe for u i am just a good time
Maybe in some parallel universe
That would be mighty fine
But i care and i care a lot
For things i probably should not
Soon i will walk away
Until then i'll make u laugh once in a while
Darling what say?

I did have a life before u
And i would have one after u too

'Coz i am someone who can walk on rocky roads without the comfort of a soft shoe
U are currently my favourite
But don't get your hopes high
U think u have me captive
But i am not nigh
I always look heavenwards
Ready for my next flight
My wings cannot be clipped
I never lose a fight
U think u can tame me
And glorify your heart
You are mistaken if u think i am a rare work of art
I am that sole star that might guide u on a moonless night
I could be that hurricane that would destroy everything in your sight
I will never spare u a second glance once i am done
U can never define me 'coz i am the unpredictable one!

fire and ice...

u are fire i am ice
now isn't that nice?
u try to melt me with your sunshine
and i bask in your flames
every now and then
i enjoy these little games
but the mystery remains
will u turn into ember or i into mist?
or would we find the will to resist?
but then we would miss all the fun
and i am willing to witness the fable that has been spun
i know u are willing since u always burn bright and fast
days for u are fleeting...u care not if moments last
but time for me is sedate until i freeze
and it is the moments that i desire to seize
what is to be of me if i melt a little bit?
would u die down or happen to be more well lit?
u possess what i lack
but i too might have something to give
we will see how the mystery unravels
if there's to be an end then who gets to live!

I want to be someplace
Where the sand is blue
And the surf is new
My footprints on the crescent beach
My hair flying in the wind like that of a witch
A wide and yawning sea before
What could i want more?

if it is not meant to be then why does it appear so to me?
why can't it be a straight road with no diversions?
i hate taking bends and losing myself on the way
where on my fragile being reality casts aspersions
i will say my goodbyes to those who greet with faint smiles
and hold on to the ones with fathomless stares
maybe this way i would come across someone who for a change actually cares
the more i digress the more i slip away from ever treacherous time
and in the process of sorting out, my frayed life collects more grime
tell me for once what i have to give for things to be a tad simple?
why is it that i walk through a green meadow only to reach dead periwinkles?
i demand a cheerful hue but am presented with something dark
the illusion is so alluring that the aftermath often seems so stark
how long do i need to trudge before i am robbed off all my desires?
before my insides turn to murky ice immune to even hellfires