Spiraling Down A Bottomless Pit...Oh What a Life i Lead!

oh what a life i lead!
where are they whom i need?
is it wrong to expect a little?
why do i day by day turn so brittle?
i can't distinguish one day from another
yet come to think of it..before my very eyes things have withered
i am drifting at times...and at others rooted to a spot
wonder if all good things come to those who demand a lot
i demand none and desire few
and perhaps that's my sin...setting all askew
it is a tired existence littered with laughter in traces
transitory sunshine with a whole lot of empty spaces
i do not know if it is worth what i seek
and if what i seek will brighten all that is bleak
my way is lost taking me along with it
i only wander down an unlit path thinking about a bottomless pit
the pit reflects moments bygone but with a lure so strong!
I cannot help but wish to relive them...knowing it is so wrong
desolation harps at me...my constant companion
and i fear one day i will lose myself into unknown oblivion
if only there were something warm to live by
a hint of sunrise across my dull skies
then again i know not what i am asking for
it might be the sun-kissed sea about to drown me...in the guise of a golden shore...