Affections Squandered

And for a few fleeting moments i was happy as a butterfly

Flying with the next breeze in search of blue skies

But happy times are shortlived and it is not a fair world

You look for simple honesty and at you lies are endlessly hurled

Your wings often get ripped by those you hold dear

Those who shun you are the ones you wanted to be near

Yet again i leave behind a piece of me and head on to what i know not

Corrupt with memories i can barely keep together my forlorn thoughts

I feel less me...one more part lost

Wasted time...wasted hopes...with waste alone my life is fraught

Why this keeps happening i ask myself

And like a rudderless ship i roam looking for answers never to be found

Only prickly questions bleed my mind

My heart silenced long ago refusing to sound

Do i deserve all this i wonder?

I guess yes..for that's what you get if precious affections you mindlessly squander..