truth as we don't know it...

the proclivity of the mind towards insurmountable wants is immense
the heart falls short of breath...of blood
the trials seem as wasted breath fogging the very fabric of future
the intellect yet refuses to give up...dragging us in infinite circles
it does not know when to relinquish the quest
for matter is neither divine nor sinful
our fault?
we embark upon the impossible..forsaking truth...reaching out for a fragment of reality that can never truly belong to us
for a finite error with incalculable consequences is the crux of all that is broken
our salvation?
to live in denial of what we desire trading dreams for dimes...

sitting beneath starry lights
i feel i have come a long way
it has been a tough walk riddled with hardships that at times made me sway
i still want to figure out the meaning of it all
i still lie awake at night waiting for my call
i see happy faces around listen to so many sounds
and wonder what went wrong
and sometimes i grow numb at just the whisper of a song
what will someone find in my wake?
what did i leave of value? of worth?
i believe none for there is so much grey even light wont come forth
passion burns brighter than inferno setting all ablaze
yes there were flames within once to call my own
now only glowing embers lie wherever the sight leads with no promise of a phoenix
there is too much quiet...too much ruin
to render any meaning to life as we know it
all that i try is to stay afloat in this eternal ocean of nothingness
barely breathing...for the waves are too harsh and the will too weak
neither drowning nor with hopes of ever reaching the shore...waiting while there is still time and a few more breaths left

Culinary Escapism...

And I decided to make pizza for dinner to beat the Monday blues!!

Not Today

and some black roses morphed into raven butterflies
flying with the next breeze
i stand inhaling their sweet scent...my heart dizzy from the night before
where i had indulged myself with a dash of tequila
what with life throwing so many lemons
but a valiant knight that i am in my faded jeans...i slay my perils
and dazzle everyone around with my sanity
for it is sunshine to those with dark corners in their minds
and with my borrowed glitter they rosy up what's mundane
adding colour to their bland palettes
i fight everyday..giant trolls and cyclops alike
struggling to find that unicorn in the demented recesses of my consciousness
it is a mighty battle i tell you...stuff of fantasies
after-all i exist within the quotidian...searching for ecstasy unknown
craving wanderlust...but rooted unerringly
everyday i feel akin to a caterpillar...waiting my turn to fly
believing yes! i am soon to be a butterfly
what is the appeal of the ephemeral? the fragile?
i crave to rejoice in the guile...snatch what's mine..rip what's thine
for then i would deserve to get my wings clipped...my hopes marred
not now...not today
when dreaming still holds some appeal...when i yet retain the ability to feel...