Not Today

and some black roses morphed into raven butterflies
flying with the next breeze
i stand inhaling their sweet scent...my heart dizzy from the night before
where i had indulged myself with a dash of tequila
what with life throwing so many lemons
but a valiant knight that i am in my faded jeans...i slay my perils
and dazzle everyone around with my sanity
for it is sunshine to those with dark corners in their minds
and with my borrowed glitter they rosy up what's mundane
adding colour to their bland palettes
i fight everyday..giant trolls and cyclops alike
struggling to find that unicorn in the demented recesses of my consciousness
it is a mighty battle i tell you...stuff of fantasies
after-all i exist within the quotidian...searching for ecstasy unknown
craving wanderlust...but rooted unerringly
everyday i feel akin to a caterpillar...waiting my turn to fly
believing yes! i am soon to be a butterfly
what is the appeal of the ephemeral? the fragile?
i crave to rejoice in the guile...snatch what's mine..rip what's thine
for then i would deserve to get my wings clipped...my hopes marred
not now...not today
when dreaming still holds some appeal...when i yet retain the ability to feel...